For about 17 months, I had what felt like an amazing job because I met some of the best people in my life right now, and acquired some beneficial skills. It was an overall great experience, but something wasn’t right. I felt out of place. Have you ever felt like you’re in a place physically but not necessarily mentally or any other way? I began to feel somewhat like that. In essence, I began to feel stuck. I got absent-minded more often than I wanted to and it provoked some thoughts. Don’t get me wrong, the position was a good one and it tied into one of my interests, but it wasn’t my career.
On getting this job, I had that knowledge – it wasn’t my career – but I was still elated. I was fresh off the graduation boat but I didn’t want to get a job in my field right away. After taking 12 courses in my last year of university, I needed a break. Even if I didn’t want to, my body, mind, and soul insisted. And truthfully, I’m thankful that I did, otherwise, I would not be writing this post. So, I decided to take the plunge and discover my other interests, and this job came along. It kept me going everyday and brought me out of my comfort zone in a good way. It was all smooth sailing until an event changed the course of things. I had an epiphany.
Initially, my love for fashion was something I didn’t think I would do much with, but with each passing day, it felt like I wanted to do more. As much as this was a good thing, it posed a bit of a problem because of the job. I couldn’t find a balance between both because my work schedule didn’t permit me to as I had a full-time position. I tried everything I could to make it work, but at some point, it began to seem unfair to my workplace. It wasn’t right to chase, and live, my dreams at their own expense. So, I decided to quit.
It was a long and difficult decision to make, but it was necessary. It felt like it was the step I had to take in order to grow as a person and accomplish all that I set out to. Sometimes, in order to take few steps forward, you have to take one back to get a different perspective. This is a constant struggle for a lot of people. It is very easy to feel comfortable where we are, especially after being there for what feels like a long time. But, if your gut is constantly telling that you should be doing something else, I think it’s worth listening to. Before taking the big step, it is of paramount importance to have certain things in place (we can save these for another post).
Don’t get the wrong message here. All this is not to say that you can’t chase your dreams while having a 9-to-5 job, it is ABSOLUTELY possible. Everyone has different courses in life. We all know at least one person that has such a life, and it is a good thing. I admire that, if anything. For me, I just couldn’t find a balance and I was left with no other choice but to sacrifice. It was a tough call, but since doing that, I’ve found clarity. I’ve found what appears to be a clearer picture of where I want to go and how to get there. It sounds cliché but it’s the honest truth. I just needed time and a step back, it seems.
All in all, stay completely true to yourself. Do not quit your job prematurely. As I mentioned earlier, have all the necessary factors in place before taking the plunge. And, make sure that it is the right thing to do and for the absolute best. A decision like this ought to be life changing, so be very prudent about it.
Peace and Love.